The first thing that comes into my head is, “ I’m quitting.”  I was panic, my vision is blurry, I don’t know where I am looking at, I don’t know where I should stand. But there is this dread thought spinning in my head: “if I really couldn’t find it, I have to quit.”

Days after the tragic incident, I am still shaken, still dreaming of my snowboard, still thinking about the nice curve, the beautiful white bottom, the handsome orange writings and the very cool flow binding that has everyone talking about.

But I am thinking again, about the quitting part.

I wanted to quit for several obvious reasons and some not so. Obviously, you can’t shred, carve the beautiful powder without a snowboard. I can’t afford a new one, its way beyond budget to get another hottie like mine. I can’t go back to rental, all boarders would probably understand this part. It’s like you used to own a tricked-up EVO VIII and race at the track, now you wreck your baby, and you have to rent an Accord to get on the race track?? Would you do it?

I am in so much pain, I have to envy everyone in the slopes.. I hate everyone holding their own board.. like a 8 year kid without a bike, looking at all the kids riding their new bikes, like a 29 year old single male, going out to Santa Monica beach on Valentine’s night.. I have to hate and that’s not me.. I would look at every board, as long as it’s black, and i can't help it.

Well, that’s the early aftermaths.. when the feeling settles.. and I’m coming to senses, as a very logical person, (at least i think so) I wanted to be reason this out. Does losing a board justify me abandon my passion for the slopes?

Like everyone else, I’ve fallen countless times, I was yelled at numerous times at the slope, I was sprayed at countless times mostly by Marv..hmm…stand corrected, only by Marvin. I have countless bruises everywhere on my body.. and just as I’m about starting to shred, carve and really enjoying this sport, i have to quit?

So i figured, if i ever want to shred again, i need a plan. And i came up with a no-brainer: i will stop going for a couple of months.. so i can save up a little, and get me a board, hopefully just as nice or maybe the same GNU. I guess my crew just have to do without me for this season.. even if i return some time mid-february, i will be so slow comparing to them, no one wanna ride with me. (Its already the case right now) so i guess no time to catch up, but at least we can hang at lunch time. (so sad..)

well.. at least i can look forward to NewYear Eve massive with my Favert DJ blowing the brains out of all of us.. yo~
Happy New Year everyone!